waisted.
12 Dec 2009 Leave a Comment
in bad girl, Drugs, frightening., step it up boy, unfaithful
For the first time im my life
i tried to drink the pain away
i told you how i feel
and all you could say
is that it was too much for you right now
and i started to realize that men dont say that-boys do
so how?
could you talk all those sweet nothings in my ear?
and take the one thing that was apart of me so dear
but leave and go without me and journey on your own song
i shoulda saw this comin cuz your past was all wrong
but instead i fought thru it tryna be different
and now im on this white carpet floor all outta shape and bent
crying slurring wondering why
did i try this love thing
it made me die
die from this world and str8 into hell
callin on God to help me
slipped in sin and fell
back in my own pool of tears…
and i felt stupid cuz i still wanted you here
but now i dont
it will make me more confused
so just spread the word your alone
and wonder why people wont be so amused…
waisted.
If heaven was a mile away..
02 Dec 2009 Leave a Comment
in unfaithful
If Heaven was a mile away
so close you could smile and lay
on its steets and not feel any way
wronged by anyone in your past?
would you think about the harsh and rude things that people do
to just only get thru to you
so sick you threw
your hands in the air, knocked on its gates and said” LET ME IN IM THROUGH
with all the emotions caused by my enemies
i just wish they could be my footstool
twisted and bent
up under me”
wishin that this heart wouldnt have an effect on thee
takin pills to relieve stress
that i wanna take out on this world consequently
tired of giving advice about the same old dilemma
so let me in the palace right now before i sin again and take a pow
as in shot at tryna be whole again
if we as a people keep this up
who will win
God’s heart
church couldnt help if your blind-sided from the start
now your stuck at the gates
no one will let you come in
so now.. what do you do?
from now on will you be true?
would you let lost never be found?
just to keep you in the same town
as heaven itself…
if heaven was a mile away..
on this world
would you stay???
i would live right next door
fufill my destiny
and walk in like i always dreamt of before…
BReak?
24 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment
in unfaithful
One thing that i will never understand is a “break”
alot of people do have these things in relationships..
50% end up never gettin back together
40% get back together and realize the problems that they tried to solve while separatin themselves from one another is STILL there
and the lucky 10%….only stay together because the so called “break” they had was only for an hour
why do we put ourselves in breaks with out opposite sex?
why do we feel like thats the best thing to do
the first thing should be CONVERSATION
being without each other will only make the situation worse…
and then here you are..back at square one.
lol
i will never understand that-
either stay together and fight thru it..
or just love each other from a distance..
that will make the world so much better..
maury and jerry springer wouldnt exist.
lol
Straight outta the window.
19 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment
in unfaithful
how come you feel like its cool
to act a fool with your friends
while im
sittin
here
sick.
its day two of your “disappearance”
and i feel like i
dont kno you.
&& then you
you had the nerve to
say your not around cuz im sick
and your sick too
but you around all them busted niggas
i wanna laugh cuz this shit is
REDICULOUS.
im not contagious…
i took care of YOU
but you just cant find the time…
to do the same for me
okay cool…
yo birthday??
not on my top priority list
cuz im def not on yours
this is NOT somethin that should be debated
we been together forever..
ughhhh….
maybe this is who you always were…
lookin outta the window
wishing i could just float away
and not deal with your nonsense
cuz im fed up
took care of you
and this is what i get?
hmph oh well
fine and dandy-
ill be fine
without you.
played the game and now youve lost
not in madden
but in my heart.
tired of making excuses and keepin my mouth shut.
you get so paranoid abt the littlest things.
why?
well..
day
two…
straight out of the window.
Me, Myself & I
17 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment
in unfaithful
shoved my phone in my drawer
so i wont be tempted to contact you
took down your photos
so i wont see you
its time for me to get myself together
and youve done nothin but confuse me
emotional rollercoaster
because of life
stressed abt the littlest things
so i cut my heart out and sit it in front of me
poured out a bucket of feelings that nested in my mind
gettin rid of you for the moment
to help me.
will it help?
who knows
but by myself
i can try…
sleep disorder
17 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment
in unfaithful
keep on havin those “dreams”
what do they mean?
i could never think about doin that to you
causing your misery
with niggas that mean nothing to me-
every week you state another one
so from the last eleven months
i thought it was done
my rebel stage, when i could give a damn
but never thought abt cheatin
i wouldve def. gone ham
to even try and do that to you..
dang
maybe you just need to read the word every night
cuz this sleep disorder is causin me strife-
and everytime you bring it up
i always be like wat the f*&k?
and then i try to make you smile
because ill know youll forget that dream after while
will i be the one to cause your heartbreak
i highly doubt it
another mistake..
