hide-n-seek
29 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment
where are you?
i cant find you!
im needing a map
im stuck here
all alone
this must be a trap
im leanin
lookin over
to everyone else’s car
following them
bumper to bumper
cuz they might know where you are
but they dont
they have no idea
that you even exist
they so worried
about fitting in
in the worldly bliss
why cant i find you
come on now
ive looked all around
paying attention to enemies walkin
ugh how blind of me
to envy them
in such of a how
so ill find you
someday soon
and there will be no more confusion
so ill stop lookin all around
and look within myself
such a delusion…
Double Take.
16 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment
As i sit in the room
she sneaks up on me
but i just try to ignore her
because they know not what they do
im just tired of the mental being
wishing something like karma would happen
enough to blow their minds
always was a kind hearted person
who’s kindness was drove away by insanity to the third degree
claims that she sees the future
but action shows different
thought about ending her misery
with just one bottle
but chokes on his words
and still she stays
what if people could read minds
maybe the world would be so much different
just so tired of being the nicest
but wont complain
ive seen so many bad things in my life
and ive came a long way
but how much more can she take
before she blows up
and
i
F A D E
away….
The perfect dream.
07 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment
Scent of your cologne and my perfume
lovin you in every dream-too soon
i wonder what could be
my curiosity
gettin the best of me
if your too far away
one dreamt kiss is makin you stay
dont wanna wait til next life time
want everyone to know your mine…
havin you in these dreams
is enought to fill my means
id rather love you in the real
but my imagination keeps the sea filled
In rain snow or sleet-
your dreamt passion is makin me weak
everytime i call
your voice makes me fall
in the deepest love i could ever think of
why dont you realize?
this love i have inside…
why dont you take the time to realize what you mean to me…
my fantasy… <3
Castaway.
25 Oct 2009 Leave a Comment
Now this is the part when im all alone-
needing some advice about this same old song-
tried to talk to my friends but their mind is on their own-
confused about life and what went wrong-
having more than second thoughts-
cuz it was 2 of us and now its me and you-
lookin towards the sky, but he’s prolly tired of hearin me too-
I know some thing BIG is gonna happen-
but is this what i gotta go thru?
wishing i could just get away-
close my eyes and drift today-
knowing this fear cannot stay-
choking on words i cannot say-
clouds over the sun; forget this day-
makes me wanna give up-
gotta cry but cant tear up-
maybe God wont let me cuz its not worth it-
tryna cheer up
BLOCK IT- HIDE IT!
so noone sees,
im trying, im trying…i need help please-
i know whats gotta happen-
i always dreaded this day-
that i lock up my love and cast it away
Put the key in my mind so ill never forget that my heart is empty-
thats it, ill wait-
until love from heaven has sent me.
the.perfect.friend.
21 Oct 2009 Leave a Comment
in how i feel, how she feels., Uncategorized
i got a vision of the perfect friend for me
one that will always be there…never leave me lonely
they would have to deal with my attitude-
but also have that spark of humor-never protrude
into being in the spotlight- like desperate ones do
but have that extra HMPH that show that theyre true
they would have to love to laugh and give life their all
and always would be there for me- never let me fall-
loves haters and hates noone- but deny childish things that others bring- and so on..
maybe ill never find that perfect friend that i yearn for-
or maybe i always had one but never pay attention-
eyes sore
from all the crying ive dealt with from the pain
but i never looked to the sky- to the one who made the rain
the only true friend i ever could count on to be there
so now im confident that im good in this world-
free from dispair-
so thank you friend for being here wit me in these hard times-
i will constantly remember to thank you no matter how things fall apart-
forever mines… <3
Are we?…
20 Oct 2009 Leave a Comment
Tryna do some work..but my mind wont let me- tryna be that person to hide but my conscience is heavy-
thinkin about too much to do in so little time…maybe i was yours in our previous lifetime-
show me all the love that you feel for me..and ill do the same-
but if we have no title…who is there to blame?
is it my fault that i let you in without a backbone? or was it distruction from the start- lovestone..
whatever this feeling is, maybe it ought to leave-
your takin over my senses- coverin my heart with a metal sleeve..
maybe its your fault for lettin me fall this hard-
just dont take offense if i walk away…heart sliced up like a credit card.
i evidently would love to be yours officially,
but if your heart is everywhere else…then ill let you go-
peacefully.
Amnesia…
19 Oct 2009 Leave a Comment
Feelin all types of rage…as i write- tearing out the page
of when you were here and caused so much pain
now i sit confused but goin crazy- insane
thoughts of erasing you out of my view for good
you always dwelled on the shoulda but you could-
NOT feel how this was affecting me on my part-
wanted a new beginning but all i got is your jealously from the start
i really wish i could just erase you from our memory but you still. here.
wanting attention that you dont claim
cant finish my work
cant finish my life
until you get away- and i slain
every bad word i cursed on you
just erase us from your memory…erase my heart from yours too-
just move on- get away- thats wat you outta do
cuz if you keep comin back ill have to do things that i regret i would do
but if thats whats i gotta do to get you to
see that im thru…
amnesia is what i call my illness…
drugs take me and my heart a long ways
so you will never be in my mind…
never ever in my future days.
