Karibabii's Blog

bed bugs.

30 Dec 2009 Leave a Comment

by Kari in how i feel

you know how u lay in bed for so long
and yoiu start gettin sick?
well
thats how i feel
i feel like i been puttin my goddamn all into one thing
and i got lovesick
sick of love i might add
no matter what he does im still hooked on him..and its so hard for me to be like ‘yea wateva’
but i believe i can and my 2010 i will
every year i do the same thing
and end up hurt again-
and so this year…is gonna be really different.
he got too comfortable.
and so did i
but in different aspects..
so here it goes
2010- i will focus on myself
no time for love because it took me for a rollercoaster
and on a host of games
tired of FACEBOOK
shit gets depressin..
how would u feel if niggas wrote all on my wall
then u write somethin nice..and i erase it cuz of ‘private life’
i understand where he wanted to go..but the bus stopped early..
and im gettin off the stop..
tired of hiding my feelings
tired of keepin quiet
so instead of go thru it again..
ill painfully
peel off the scar..
and let it heal the right way..

Step up.

23 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment

by Kari in how i feel

Not sure what imma do with my life

but its gonna be big

but why do i have all these big dreams

if i cant trig

er

enough strength to write a five page paper?

constantly moving around

wondering what to do next

wishing i could just vapor

to the future and skip all the hard times

where i know ill be an impact to the world

wait-decline

that dream

and focus on me

boyfriends come and go but your dreams dont

evidently

oh how i love him so

but theres a time and a place

catering my all to him

and then somethin happpens

and then i get dirt in the face

so ill avoid that and be independent

but love him as a friend

cuz he’ll always have my heart

always to the end

so as a woman i have to step up

recognize the game and go after it

be strong and down to the point

i wont take no shit

as in i wont take no for an answer

imma do wit i gotta do

more moves than a dancer

i got this beat

so step off problems

your already at defeat.

no turnin back

like a one way street..

Differentation.

21 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment

by Kari in how i feel

I love to write because i know to feel

cuz in the real world all what i see isnt real

i mean whats real anymore?

people too busy tryna be others

beacuse theyre not sure

of

how

people will view them if they would just BE

themselves

steady lookin at me salty eyed cuz all theyre bull

i stock on shelves

cuz i have no time to waist with them in my view

im just tryna better myself

not act brand new

i can finally say that i am content with who im around

because last year wasnt right

my life went str8 DOWN

hill

and now im climbing back up

if you dont like me..

so what?

if you hate to see me around

im happy to cause your frown

but where is that gonna lead you?

i raise a brow..

cuz most of the most hated on people have fans..

so what you followin me now?

hahhahaha…

“For a little while, I thought girls were just jealous, which is why they were mean to me. Maybe they were jealous of my fearlessness, but one thing i DO know- is that they were definitely jealous of how much smarter i was….”- lady gaga

11:20

21 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment

by Kari in how i feel

im just sittin here thinkin

what should i do?

i have alot to think about-

you should too

growing up is so hard

especially when you dont have guidance

all they can tell me is what NOT to do

and how NOT to do things

today was the breakin point

i wanted to quit school forreal

being the only one in my family here

isnt cool

but-

oh well

imma do what i gotta do

my dreams will turn into

reality

i WILL be in this fight

because if i give up…

what will i gain?

how will that help?

i got my game plan..

to get back how things used to be

plus havin HIM by my side

awh…speechless <3

i think abt how HIM and i been thru it all

and when family didnt understand..

WE still stood-

seein him smile just

brightens up life

he constanly tells me to be optimistic

take what they say in and work on how

to better from it

and i do

cuz they cant stop me.

makin my own decisions from now on

no more goin out on a whim…

time to be who i once was &&

rely on God to be there…

yep.

3-25-09

16 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment

by Kari in how i feel

inspiring
-> kiss?
makes ponders
-> wish?
wanting, needing the sources of attention
but naive minds
-> miss?
the true depth of my inspiring
-> kiss-
better yet just try and
-> wish-
that two sinful minds joined together
->miss-
or pass tough challenges and overcome one
-> wish;
to be together for lifetime-
sealed in just one-
-> kiss…

numero uno.

07 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment

by Kari in how i feel

now that i had my mistakes my freshman year- &had the ex from hell,
i enjoy my life even more because im alone-
not necessarily alone as in relationship wise-
i love my IV.
but as in alone like friends-
i hang- but i have no tight girls..
and thats a good thing-
i just have myself to learn from and grow-
id rather be alone- than mixed in with drama
&&stressin abt what i do or who i talk to-
just rather chill& write..look up at the moon =)
or think about things i wanna do with my future-
ill have friends then…but now
i have to learn how i work- ya feel me?
dont get me wrong-
i love my girls
and thats what i did-
not lookin for a friend, cuz that doesnt end up good
alot of people say the best friends we have, life brought them together…and thats what i believe <3

tunes in her heart.

04 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment

by Kari in how i feel

Sometimes i wonder what he’s thinking
when his face has such a glow
he tilts his head to the side-grinning
his mind is racing- i still wanna know
how can she get to him
get him to loosin
his stress and relax his mind
while i am still here wondering-
always 3 steps behind
wanna be the one his mind can rely to undwind
when pressure gets filled
his love for her healed
his pain
and H E looks at me and smiles
knowing that im just an ear
to hear
what love they made into beautiful music
and how in so many ways her love
he can use it
when he’s sick
i cant to anything
but she knows just the trick-
to bring that handsome glow back-
good thing that her and I are great friends
so with her his love is-
never at lack.
=)