Back to the future :)
30 Mar 2010 Leave a Comment
this is so crazy!
we are back cool
not back together together
but back together
he loves me
its special
i love him also
were special
he said alot to me that made me think
think long and hard about us
and if things were to happen “hypothetically”
i just know we are meant to be
and he feels the same
soo… the other girls?
i really dont mind- and this is a first for me to say this
that im not worried or intimidated by any of them
but they are all intimidated my me
i could see why
but we all are just human
and im doin me also
but i kno that nobody in this world could take my eyes off of him
my first
and my bestfriend
two of my homegirls was like “yall even go to church together”
if we are sexually, mentally and physically compatible
and spiritually is there also
noone can stop us
i pray that things are good btwn us from now on
welcome to the future guys
we are the future….
What id do…
29 Dec 2009 Leave a Comment
in Futuristic love, step it up boy
i would love to rub your back to make u feel alright
or say i love u when im mad all out of spite
then sit and talk to u until the moon begins to fall
fall asleep on my chest makes me feel so tall
givin my last piece of food to make sure ur okay
and readin your feelings all nite and day
just to feel how u feel
and cherish your heart with a seal
or see u out in your best
and say to my friends, “thats my love, she’s the best”
i would love to never make u feel anyway but happy
and never let u go because u complete me
forget about the problems because ur my air
u are my drug and ill be without despair
i would love to treat u with everything
and fear wont be what our eyes sing
so ill find you and treat u with all i got
and do like he never did-put u 2nd after God
and thats alot…
wait- just wait.
18 Dec 2009 Leave a Comment
in Futuristic love, good morning.
The lesson in my life is patience
patience with love
patience with life
patience with family
basically everything
see my problem is
i want everything NOW
and God sees that and instead of granting my demand
he gives me what i need at the right time
so i can appreciate him more
i love him so much
and its funny how we are still so deep in love
when we are only just friends
well i have patience
that time will show itself
and someday
we will be…
a different world.
09 Dec 2009 Leave a Comment
in Futuristic love, Uncategorized
Why am i so confused
what does he really want to say?
is it that when i leave this school and go to another
there is no way?
for us to be even together?
but you would love to still be with me
thru all of this bad weather?
okay i think i get it
sports will both separately have our hearts
my first
your second
will both loves part
temporarily until our goals are complete?
i dont think so
cuz when your busy
i will be busy too
and boy- them girls are gonna get to you
me? nah no more boys, better yet no more men
i need to focus on me
if our flame comes to an end
i couldnt take another
knowing 3 miles away you still have my heart
and ill constantly think of you
when we are apart
so-
what do you want to do?
do you wanna continue?
or so you need some time alone?
because i know
ill
be missin you.
Stick in the middle
07 Dec 2009 Leave a Comment
So im sittin here
anxiously waiting
why is it takin them so long?
contemplating
is this the best decision i will make?
if so then how long will this take??
tryin not to be impatient but come on now
but what if they dont want me
how?
will i feel
but i feel so certain that this yes feeling is REAL
ill meet my 1st Love again of 9 years
and then be in a peaceful place
away with my fears
cuz i know God knows whats best for me
so ill sit back and wait
until the decision is callin me.
Fork(s) in the road
27 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment
today i was listening to alot of wise souls
but i could never get why im still suck
i suppose
that im not doin what i should be
not focusing on you my king
but times like this are so hard
not up to par in all my classes so far
and now im at a crossroad
what should i do?
i had alot of guidance but
im not seein it thru
i had what i was going to do
and imma push thru with it
but
i
just have a problem with people tellin me
how to fit
what i “should” do with my life
so thats ending today
i know what i want to do
and now im focus okay
im thankful and will try very hard
to be obedient and wise
and stick to THEM BOOKS
and sharpen my mind
MY LIFE.
cant make the wrong decision
so ill pray until you show me
and ill be patient
but in the meantime ill write
to show the world where ive come from
so..
use
me.
