1:18 am.
03 Dec 2009 Leave a Comment
in Father?
Just do me one more favor
and i wont ask you for nothin else
take me away from this labor
of witnessing this craziness
i just want to be alone.
with him by my side
no he say she say
all of that stuff can reside
in a special place far away from my ears
keep whats so dear to me here
and leave everything else behind
i trust that you will listen to my prayer
youve answered so much before
trust me when i say ive changed
never intended to cause my own pain
so forgive me over and over
dear God who made the rain
after i write this
ill pray and pray
until you give me a opportunity to get away
from
this
place…
ill promise that i wont let you down…
Daddy?
17 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment
in Father?
never had a chance to call you “daddy”
cuz you were never there
all the things ive took part of in the past
you still were never there
unless jazzy and i played against each other
then you would swear
that you came to see me
but you were all on Westover side
actin like i never was there
but i was
dropped 12 that game
i was in 3 musicals
15,000 basketball games
72 tournaments
1 national basketball aau championship
where YOU loved to coach
coached high school ball with my aau coach
and still never was there…
3 national band championships
umpteen millions of track meets
regionals
states 9th grade
and you never attended 1
im not a mommy’s girl
she did some things that hurt too
but she apologized
and you never came thru
madness all up and thru my heart
cuz my closest sister has always gained your heart
but me?
nah never
was not your little boy like you always wanted
you would just come only to tell me
im glad you arent prego or followin some boy
i would be like damn..
would that have got your attention?
im doin wayy better than you every imagined
so now you wanna be here?
maybe its just not my time to call you yet.
i cannot take that right now…
