Rehab’n it out
13 Dec 2009 Leave a Comment
in Drugs
i havent ate today
no swipes on my card..
but im glad im feelin better
tried to pray
i can only just wait
and listen
and follow my mind
because my heart gave me too much emotion
and caused me to break down
so im content with where i am
no dissatisfaction
even tho im going thru my situation
i still love my life
and i cherish my body
i hope to be forgiven
and cleansed from my sins
it wont happen ever again
me letting someone get that close to me
because nothing is ever promised
except God’s word
and my faith is promised also
so im in my room
cleansing my body
you can just say…
im rehab’n it out.
waisted.
12 Dec 2009 Leave a Comment
in bad girl, Drugs, frightening., step it up boy, unfaithful
For the first time im my life
i tried to drink the pain away
i told you how i feel
and all you could say
is that it was too much for you right now
and i started to realize that men dont say that-boys do
so how?
could you talk all those sweet nothings in my ear?
and take the one thing that was apart of me so dear
but leave and go without me and journey on your own song
i shoulda saw this comin cuz your past was all wrong
but instead i fought thru it tryna be different
and now im on this white carpet floor all outta shape and bent
crying slurring wondering why
did i try this love thing
it made me die
die from this world and str8 into hell
callin on God to help me
slipped in sin and fell
back in my own pool of tears…
and i felt stupid cuz i still wanted you here
but now i dont
it will make me more confused
so just spread the word your alone
and wonder why people wont be so amused…
waisted.
11 stories down.
10 Dec 2009 Leave a Comment
in Drugs, frightening., Him., how i feel
Man did we make a mistake?
without your love i cant take
another breath knowin theres no you by my side
and everytime i see you i want to run and hide
alone in my room
because you were my than my love
you were my bestfriend
i feel so lost because
i really dont know how to react around you?
kiss?
no
hug?
yea…but only for a while
what i really wanna do is hold you..just for a little while longer..
omg ill have to move on
this is so unreal!
nobody will ever compare to you
you are my first love my dear..
and i pray that noone takes my place
the way i took it
because i gave my all…
and thats what made us fall..
in love.
what about life couldnt we take?
to break this tie with each other
mistake
is what i hope we didnt make..
my heart is empty
im empty.
idk what else to say…
Take the time to see….
09 Dec 2009 Leave a Comment
in Drugs, frightening., Him.
As i sit on my bed thinkin about what has been happening…i began to grow so confused- why is this happening? why do i like im loosing you??? Then.. i put on my headphones and faded a w a y…
They said i had it bad
addicted to what we had
heart rate slow fadin fast
vitals low might not last
strapped down while sirens ring
holdin on tryn to breath
not like this i cant leave..
look what youve done to me……
maybe its not you im losing…maybe its myself for tryna get rid of you always around….
i overdosed.
had too much of you.
now your fading
and im dying inside…
Mending Hearts Rehabilitaion Center…
17 Nov 2009 Leave a Comment
in Drugs
this place is bull
cant eat what i want
have to go to these meetings with physicians who
cant imagine
so i front
act like this white jacket is helping me
but all i think about
is goin home
where i wanna be
sleeples nights
terrible fights
stressful
cuz he couldnt understand me
sent me to rehab
now my head is heavy
how is this helping me?
when i told you to read my feelings
and you denied
evedently
so ill stay here forever
just to be away from you
because im afriad to go back
and your the drug i run into…
